Triggers.

Hello all,

I think something that I would like to talk about is triggers and that I know that with the Eating Disorder,
many of us tend to face triggers outside. Be it friends, family, or even strangers that we see walking on
the street.

I don't know for you guys but for me, I really find it very triggering if someone is really skinny AND also restrict their intake and often obsess about food or other people food. Although I know that that is what I do as well, I just feel that this is my identity and that no one should snatch this part of me.

Maybe some things to share with you, some personal feelings.
Have you ever asked yourself, why would you get triggered when normal people don't get triggered by the skinny people but rather get turned off by them?

That is because we are all sick and that we want to be like the skinny ones, so we are in a sense "jealous" of them being so sick and that we continue harping on the fact that we are fatter, heavier, bigger than them.

But, this is something that I feel reassuring if you want to cope with triggers. Just ask yourself, "How long can they sustain this? And even if they become skinny, are they truly happy?"

I guess, thats the main goal of my topic today. If there is any triggers that you find around you, please feel free to comment on this post and we will discuss them one by one.
I just want all of you to know that you are be-YOU-tiful the way you are, stay strong guys! :)

Post-Fight

Hi all,

Although there aren't really people reading this blog like everyday, I still want to make it a point to journal down my thoughts and stuff. Just to let myself be on track and know what I am doing.

Of course, as you can see that I am able to blog, that goes to show that I didn't really did what I planned, that is to run away of course. Hmm, after some persuasion, I realized that I might even be adding fuel to the oil when in actual fact I might not get admitted so why bother?

Another thing is of course, the fact that I don't know why but I felt really indebted to my parents and felt that what they did for me could never outweigh what the ED do for me (did it do anything productive/caring).
-In my mind-
Devil: I DID SO MUCH FOR YOU. I GAVE YOU THE CONTROL THAT YOU WANT, I GAVE YOU THE SKINNY LIFE THAT YOU WANT, I GAVE YOU THE (...) 

Me: Yeah, you give me nothing else but just bullshit and crap. Go rot in hell.

So, I guess that is all about it. If there is anything I can do to help, please email me at anorexicrecovery@gmail.com or you can also leave a comment on my blog!

Here's up some food photos, although it might not look appetizing. So, if there is anything that you want me to also share or talk about, feel free to comment!

Thanks buds, so here goes some food porn :)
Oops, blogger seems to not allow me to post my food porn. Till the next time then, will try to figure out what's wrong with this photo uploader.

Ciaos.