Update.

Haven't been blogging in a while but I just wanna update on readers (though I know there aren't) I am just so pissed off at myself for lacking the courage to end this life. I wanna see how many people would be laughing and gloating their way due to the absence of mine. I hate the fact that I am still alive. Where else can I rant when I am judged everywhere? Practically everywhere you know. I feel so fucked up. I am sorry for being such a failure. I don't know what to do for everything anymore. What's there to live for?